Disney World Pinball

When I was a little girl I had a Disney World pinball machine. It really wasn't a machine, it was more like a board that I held in my lap at an angle. When I shot the ball up with the spring loaded lever I could manipulate it by tilting the board to the left or the right. While it was a simple game, it was one that I enjoyed playing, so when we went on vacation and I heard that the hotel we were staying in had a game room with a pinball machine in it I was excited. Imagine my delight as I stood before the large pinball machine with it's loud music and flashing lights. I felt that it was begging for my quarter. After feeding it its mammon I pulled back the lever and slung the pinball forward. As the ball came back down I flipped the flippers and pushed the side buttons, but within seconds the ball went sliding down the bottom of the machine. Game over. I did not like this game. Unlike my Disney version of pinball, this game gave me very little control over the ball. The pinball on this game merely hit whatever it hit and bounced wherever it bounced and whatever happened to it is what happened. It was more of a game of chance then a game that I could control (at least at the age of nine!).

How does this relate to my small change of the day? Well, at work today I was asked what job I wanted. If the particular job that I was asking for was not put into the budget would another job be alright? My answer? I don't know. I shocked myself. Usually I bounce. I allow myself to land wherever I land. I give this a spiritual slant in saying that "God is directing my steps" but the honest truth is - I believe God created me for a purpose and He expects me to know that purpose and go after it. I am supposed to use my brain and not just bounce. While I will probably go after either position - I at least took time to think today. To not just bounce but actually tilt the board in my favor and let myself have a little extra time before I landed. Good job self!